Fading

It was not done intentionally,
my data I was unable to recover
and thus I inquired immediately,
only to receive a 'No' for an answer.

How could I then hold myself back
without having, asking an alternative,
as my memory it now seems to lack
recalling over the years from perspective.

I am dreadful for the time that gone by,
my age is dearly catching up on me,
nothing within me can scream, my this cry,
the wailing of a hearts' crushing decree.